I can no longer silence her as she screams from the inside, but no one can hear her.
It's all inside her head.
The poison that cannot be undone.
Chemical this, and chemical that. To Balance that, to balance that.
Screaming, medicate the pain
Another pill buys her another half life.
Overlapping. Never undoing. Chemical, medicinal band-aid.
She never had the courage to just let her feet drop, swan dive, swallow incessantly.
Always making phone calls or being the subject of abstract jokes and pointed stares.
Mental prisons. 7-10 days and then she's better at least for the moment.
She screams again, this time, out loud. No one can hear it, they just judge it.
So judge her, make your off-colour remarks and just be done with it.
She doesn't care because she knows you haven't been there.
She knows that she can, and will continue to scream from the inside out.
Med compliant, never defiant.
It's just another pill, for another half-life.
Half-life (abbreviated t1⁄2) is the time required for a quantity to reduce to half its initial value. The term is commonly used in nuclear physics to describe how quickly unstable atoms undergo, or how long stable atoms survive, radioactive decay. The term is also used more generally to characterize any type of exponential or non-exponential decay. For example, the medical sciences refer to thebiological half-life of drugs and other chemicals in the body. The converse of half-life is doubling time.
The original term, half-life period, dating to Ernest Rutherford's discovery of the principle in 1907, was shortened to half-life in the early 1950s. Rutherford applied the principle of a radioactive element's half-life to studies of age determination of rocks by measuring the decay period of radium to lead-206.
Half-life is constant over the lifetime of an exponentially decaying quantity.
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